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Monday, May 31, 2010

Guys having an affair is a MUST?


Today we watched a singapore live show titled as "从心开始”which talk about the miserable life of a uncle in his old age that just won his sue on his own daughter to get alimony for every month. Th stories begin when the uncle seriously addicted to gambling and bring troubling to his family while he tried to escape from AH LONG to Indonesia. His wife and kids couldnt make their mind to forgive their father since they experienced the suffering life with debt collectors everday during pro morning.The point that the uncle used to sue his daughter is that when his kids found he had another family in Indonesia, they tried to persued their father to transfer the ownership of the house to his daugher. We dont know whats the primary reason of his daugher doing that, but as a daughter i guess i will do that so as this is the only way to protect my mum that her husband built another family out there. Another important point is that the uncle never feel sorry to his family and still argued strongly that he feed the family, bring kids for schooling and provided what they want. From my point of view, that uncle not really understand what actually his kids need from parent. His kids expressed their feeling through a letter that read out through the host of the show that they suffered since they was young with illegal debt collectors everyday and only their mum take good care of them. It means they blamed so badly on his dad never take good care of them and having affair out there. The funny things the uncle refuted is that what he done is all because of his wife having affair with another guy. We dont know is that blame or sue is true or not but something im sure is that his family will never forgive their father no matter what he done because the hurt is rooted so firm in their heart.

After the show we had a short discussion on that topic. Edwin told me actually its something normal for a guy to play around out there, but the point is NEVER BRING TROUBLE TO FAMILY. Yes, maybe guys would have such thought that some girls might behave that way as well. I never agree to this statement that girls will do so before i come to jb. Cant be deny that alot girls in jb are quite open-minded till they dare to do something that i cant really accept. From the gals view, i still cant accept this senario. I cant accept my partner having affair out there and still wish to get a complete family after go home. NO WAY! Im so sorry that i cant agree to what Edwin told me, but i wont block u from doing this because i will still stand on my statement. U better watch out ar!! xD...Besides, that show bring me to some thinking that my father do playing around out there when we r still young. This incident bring a deep hurt to me as i thought my father is so nices and love us so much. But, im so wrong of it! Dad, dont blame us that we r so close to mum not u. I am failed to act as i dont care about how u hurted mum so deep inside her heart till now she so love u and sacrified for this family. As your kids, we saw everything by our eye as u never love mum from your heart and talk ill-mannersly to mum like a dog. Mum...no matter how u still have us. We love u . Dad..we respect u as our biological father but wish u wont do something walk to the fire, TQ



你的缺点 让我痛苦

昨天,我们聊到个人的缺点。我就逮到机会想好好的跟他谈一谈。以前的他脾气很好,没有试过跟我发脾气,而且我说什么他都尽量满足我,不会有太多的怨言。相反地,现在的他不但没有了好脾气,还很不讲理。有时还会无端端骂人,我为了不想跟他一般见识,通常就当耳边风,不然我会很难受的。我知道每一个都有缺点,我也一样。我的脾气也不好,但是我发现这几年来脾气没有以前坏,而且也尽量不要跟他吵。我们俩总要有一个人要让的,我知道肯定不会是他,所以我只好扮耳聋。他的缺点,不能说少。比如说,他不爱干净,不爱整齐就算了。还不体谅我,用了东西不会顺便放回原位的,这就是为什么他认为我总有做不完的家务。其实就是,我一边收拾,他一边弄乱。有时真的很想什么都不做,让他的屋子变狗窝,我真的很累了。如果我这么累会得到他的体谅的话,内心还会好过一点,但是事实并没有。还有一点就是,他好胜心很强,强的让我快窒息了。什么都可以说成是他对的。我还记得前几天我们去马六甲,出门不久就接到一通电话,说他们在我们家外面。刚开始对方说的不清不楚,我就以为是电讯公司来装moderm。但是回到家却发现原来是快递公司而不是电讯公司。这是他就开始乱骂人了,说都是我的错,听错是电讯公司,害他要特地到回头什么的。明明他就是要回家拿电话的,为什么最后却变成我的错?还说浪费车友要特地到快递公司那包裹。我已警告说他了,只是顺路,不是特地。这样他也可以说成是我的错,我真的服了他。总之什么事情都是我的错的,我已经开始有点习惯了。每次他准备要无赖我的时候,我一定会抢先一步说:“你是不是要说是我的错?”没有一次他真的会认错,好好的说是自己不小心的。我还告诉他说:“我不相信有一个女生可以忍受你的脾气!她们不跑我裸跑给你看”。当时我真的没好气跟他说,真的很无奈。一个不肯接受意见和批评的人,说什么也是多余的,因为他不愿意接受自己的缺陷。不是我不爱他,只是我总要保护自己。必要的时候,我会离开的。我没有多余的时间和精力跟他耗下去。老实说,做老姑婆都没有那么痛苦。希望你明白,我可以默默为你付出一切,甚至不计较你的背景,但是我希望你可以尊重我。。。




Sunday, May 30, 2010

challenges of the Year 7th

I just wonder is it we are bored to each other since we had been stayed for such a long period. 7 years or 2556 days we had tasted the life together. Before this, long-run date is something that i wonder which is pretty wonderful and non-replaceable for anything. In contrast, i found its not the way to have such thought. My mum worked so hard for this family and love us so much. We are always the 1st in her heart till always ignored herself. From that point, i realized female can sacrified everything inlcude her beauty for the loved one. Yes, i pretty agreed that since im approaching that stage as i cant stop to love him even always throw a bad word that hurted me so deep inside. Why i can stand that since im not that kind of girl that easily throw in the sponge? That is the most terrible experience i guess. Deep down in my heart, i dont really wishes to behave that just for him because i dont really get his real feeling on me yet, thats y im afraid and fulled of fear. Alot comfort words come to my mind everytime been hurted and cried alone at the corner side. I need to get ready mentally as i might forced to leave him one day from now just because he might found it is time for me to leave and i dont think i will take any action to urge him to stay with me. I need more safety from this relationship as i couldn't feel comfortable with him. I just wonder how a couple can be so understanding to each other and still that fervent in their life. For me, lovelife need to be refresh from time to time since they r nothing can last forever without caring and love as well as understanding to each other. Holding your hand for the rest of my life is something im afraid to wonder for current period. I guess i know whats the meaning of "challenge of year 7". I make my mind to leave it to God and fate. We will still holding hand of each after 10 years if we are fated to be a couple. Otherwise i will always wish u all the best in your life. I just wonder since when i see through the world and reality.

I never told u "I LOVE YOU" before this, because i would like to keep it for myself. I need to be protect. Sorry...

Monday, May 10, 2010

小吵是为了让你知道我有多在乎你

今天我们为了工作的事,大吵了一架。心里很难过,好想大声的哭。觉得很委屈,自己忙的精疲力尽还要帮你处理工作的事。心里的痛无法完全释放出来。为什么我们总是要为了芝麻绿豆的事吵架呢?我们不是说好要互相扶持一起生活的吗?虽然每次吵架后都是你开口说话,但是我的气还是咽不下去。因为很多时候明明就是你的错,为什么受气的人总是我。为什么你总是在事后,才会觉得你自己太冲动了?是你EQ太低吗?还是我死要脸?你知道我不可能会认错的,所以你主动找话题?是这样才可以安慰自己吗?还是至少不会觉得你在欺负我?

我内心深处是知道你关心我的,所以很多时候我会尽量迁就。我也不想一天一小吵两天一大吵的。。两个人相处真的很多学问。人与人很难避免口角,因为每个人都有不同的价值观,不同的意见。毕竟我们是来之不同的地方,习俗什么的都不一样,还有家庭教育。。希望未来我们可以互相扶持。




新家

搬进这个家大概快两个月了。今天沙发也来了,所以想写一篇“新家”的终结了。刚开始因为家里什么也没有,空空荡荡的才会一直拖到现在。我们是在三月十四号搬进来的,多四天就满两个月了。我还记得搬家的情景是很可怕也很匆忙的。因为之前的房子是租的,所以要在租约到期之前搬家。搬家的时候因为太忙了,所以没有照片。只有一些匆匆忙忙补拍的。






















就只有这些照片了。而且还有很多东西是还没有齐全的。所以就不拍了。。嘻嘻。。比如说小房乱到。。




还有厨房


都是乱到不行的。。。好啦,就这样先吧。

Sunday, May 9, 2010

他为那位失去男朋友的女生感到心酸



已经有好一段时间爱你没有写部落格了。我很喜欢用文字记载很多事,但是由于本人太懒惰了。哈哈。。所以很多设立了的部落格就不了了之。这段日子因该还算快乐,所以没有什么悲伤的心情让我冒起写日志的念头。昨天edwin在朋友的面子书上看到某某一个女生的部落格,写着她的男朋友发生意外过世了。当时是这样的,我真在一旁忙着做一些网上问卷。他就一直嘴里念着:“真的让人心酸啊!”我就没有意思要理会他。他就一直一个人静静的看着荧幕,最后他说:“真的看不下去了,写的这么凄惨。。。”。这时,我才开始注意他。他走开了,可能是无法再看下去了。于是,我就跑到他的荧幕前。我听到的是,一个很悲惨的歌曲 “礼物”-刘力扬。接着我就坐下,读起眼前的部落格了。看见爱你很多的照片,一个长得不错的男生和一位应该是十八十九岁女生的合照。接着,我就开始了。读着读着。。原来事情是这样的。男生工作途中发生交通意外过世了。看着女生伤心的文字,真的让人很心酸。没有华丽的文字,就简简单单的的句子描述了她对他的思念。但是,还好女生很坚定。而且不会让男生对自己失望,还答应一定会好好过生活。



其实这种勇气真的不容易。看了她的经历,老实说,我反复问了自己很多遍:“我是否有那么坚强的心呢?”想了很多遍。我的结论是,我想我没有那种勇气表现得那么坚强。想着想着,我会不时的看看身边的他。他最喜欢跟我开玩笑说:“我今晚不回家了,出去wet!! ” 对他来说,可能只是普通的一句话,但是,如果真的不回来,他是否有想过,我呢?该怎么办才好?我一直以为我不是那种喜欢小鸟依人的女生,不会依赖他,可以很独立。但是这几年来,我发觉自己比想象的还要无能,什么事都希望由他为我决定,那我就不去要烦恼了。哈哈。。。

我很喜欢写文章,记载很多身边发生的事物。这里的文章没有华丽的文字,也没有美丽的照片,就只有很纯粹的“紫色的心情”而已。有时候无聊,还可以游览一下自己的过去。。回味回味一下 。。xp