challenges of the Year 7th

I just wonder is it we are bored to each other since we had been stayed for such a long period. 7 years or 2556 days we had tasted the life together. Before this, long-run date is something that i wonder which is pretty wonderful and non-replaceable for anything. In contrast, i found its not the way to have such thought. My mum worked so hard for this family and love us so much. We are always the 1st in her heart till always ignored herself. From that point, i realized female can sacrified everything inlcude her beauty for the loved one. Yes, i pretty agreed that since im approaching that stage as i cant stop to love him even always throw a bad word that hurted me so deep inside. Why i can stand that since im not that kind of girl that easily throw in the sponge? That is the most terrible experience i guess. Deep down in my heart, i dont really wishes to behave that just for him because i dont really get his real feeling on me yet, thats y im afraid and fulled of fear. Alot comfort words come to my mind everytime been hurted and cried alone at the corner side. I need to get ready mentally as i might forced to leave him one day from now just because he might found it is time for me to leave and i dont think i will take any action to urge him to stay with me. I need more safety from this relationship as i couldn't feel comfortable with him. I just wonder how a couple can be so understanding to each other and still that fervent in their life. For me, lovelife need to be refresh from time to time since they r nothing can last forever without caring and love as well as understanding to each other. Holding your hand for the rest of my life is something im afraid to wonder for current period. I guess i know whats the meaning of "challenge of year 7". I make my mind to leave it to God and fate. We will still holding hand of each after 10 years if we are fated to be a couple. Otherwise i will always wish u all the best in your life. I just wonder since when i see through the world and reality.

I never told u "I LOVE YOU" before this, because i would like to keep it for myself. I need to be protect. Sorry...